Friday, July 31, 2009

All Days Ordained

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mothers womb. I praise you because I am fearfully & wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the Earth Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. PSALM 139:13-16

I chose this scripture today because I can't stop thinking of the wonder & beauty of life. These are more than words to me, they are truth. They breathe life into my sometimes weary soul. They remind me that when I was living my life day by day, God, the creator of all things was patiently knitting my Isaac & Hannah together. With gentle loving hands, He was the master artist. Drawing Hannah's beautiful pout, & Isaac's sweet ears that were just perfect. He saw them before I knew they were within my womb. He saw them & loved beyond all I can measure. Their days although short, were ordained.
Now let me camp here a moment, in that word; Ordain.
The word ordain means to be set apart. Now, when I stop & think of what that means for my children, they are ordained. Set apart by God for His purpose, they have been chosen, called by Him to do amazing things for His Kingdom! I suppose I could sit back & wonder "what could their little lives have done? For God? Almighty God?" But I'm not doing that, instead I'm standing, humbled, in awe of His majesty.
He chose MY babies, simple me? My babies? What a legacy they can have with Him as their author! And what grabs my attention & my heart is this scripture does not only apply to them, it applies to me! And you!
You see, I have been set apart, I have a greater purpose than living for today. I have a role in His Kingdom. I know that the path He has had me on, through the loss of my children is refining me for that purpose.
I can't pretend to know or even have a clue where HE is leading me. But I can rest in Blessed Assurance that He created me,
that He patiently knit me together,
that I am not, nor have I ever been hidden from Him,
that He has set me apart,
that He loves me....
that He loves you...
that He loves...Isaac & Hannah